"Two things I ask of you, O Lord... keep falsehood and lies far from me; Give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread. Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you, or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonor the name of my God." Proverbs 30:7-9
These few verses in Proverbs 30 were spoken by some guy named Agur, who was the son of some other guy named Jakeh. I don't know much about either of them, but I sure like Agur's words and heart. Like Solomon who asked God for wisdom, Agur asked God to keep him in the truth, and to keep him simply content - with just enough.
When was the last time that I asked God for JUST ENOUGH? Yes, I recognize He is the one who abundantly blesses me, and yes, I am consistently giving Him the glory for whatever He brings, but I rarely say "Wait a minute! That's too much, God! I don't want ____. Please just take it back so I don't become too proud or forget it was You who gave it to me." If I'm honest, my heart isn't often at the 'just enough' place and looking back, I think I trust in myself a bit too much.
Agur was wise to understand his own limitations and his tendency towards pride or greed. He thought - and prayed - ahead to the dangers of what could happen within the realm of temptation, and decided not to trust himself too much, but rely on God to give him advanced coverage. Because of this wise guy Agur, I plan to do more praying ahead, anticipating my own tendencies, temptations, habits and personal weaknesses. I need advanced coverage.
God knows all. He knew exactly what Agur would do with what he was given. He knows me too, and He knows just what I will do with what I am given. He still wants me to trust Him, and to ask. He wants me to grow in my knowledge of who I am, and in my understanding of who HE is. He wants me to continue voicing my desperate need for Him daily, as a reminder to myself, and a witness to others. And I believe that like most parents, my Father God would like to see me wise up and pray ahead with the confidence that He is already there.